THE CYCLE OF THE SOUL
Part III
The Cosmic Life

Jozef Rulof

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© 2014 'De Eeuw van Christus'

There was so much I had to think about, that I could not stop thinking. Time and time again I experienced new wonders. Exalting had been the view of the fourth cosmic degree. An enormously great happiness was in store for the people on earth. Love, nothing but love! In feelings I was already far distant from the earth. First came all those spheres of the spirit, and next the mental regions where the soul shed its spiritual body and went further. Oh, I fully comprehended and felt it. It was also remarkable that one was always left alone so that one could think things out. What did one do on earth? The one envied the good fortune of an other. I too had been like that. Now they could do anything at all to me and still I would not be able to kill. Such feelings lay far away from me now.

Here I lived amidst my possessions, with beside and in me, my Marianne. In the room of prayer I wanted to be with her, to beg God’s blessing for our everlasting union. Her spiritual home would be like mine. Full of joy I knelt down and thanked my Almighty Father for all the beauty and holiness I had received. I was a tiny part of the mighty universe, a very minute part of God, and every human being had this same attunement. How I wished I could let the people on earth know all this.

To be allowed to die on earth was a blessing, for many wonders awaited the human being. I always thought that I had consciousness on earth already, but how many degrees of consciousness had I experienced in the meantime? Only now was I awake, and yet, only in the fourth sphere would I be spiritually conscious. Passing over and waking up, always the same, going over and entering in an other sphere. It was wondrous. But I accepted it all and believed everything, for I had seen it with my own eyes.

Now again I would learn other wonders. I felt elated and sat down again at the feet of Marianne to say goodbye to her. Then my leader came in. I was ready within myself and waited for things to come.

‘Are you ready, Lantos?’

‘I am ready, master. Wherever you will go, I am at your disposal.’

‘Fine, Lantos, then come here and try to connect yourself with the higher life.’

I knelt down and prayed to God to give my leader the powers to show and reveal all things to me. We prayed a long time. During the prayer a strange mood crept up in me. It was as if my feelings ebbed away and that I entered a silence I had felt before. In me grew the desire to be born again. Deep down I descended in feeling and before me I saw the world of the unconscious. An even stronger feeling came to me, and I saw human beings on earth. Next a family, father, mother and children. The mother was rebellious. What did this picture mean? I saw it all very clearly. Next I only saw the mother, and I felt that I was being connected with her. We both were one. My God, what was happening to me now? I felt that I was the child she carried inside. I sank into a deep sleep, and that sleep lasted nine months. Then I left and woke up. Thus, died on earth and born in the spirit. What was the meaning of this scene? I looked at my leader and asked: ‘What was the meaning of this scene, master Emschor?’

‘This you will experience.’

‘Will I go back to earth to relive that?’

‘Yes, my Lantos, you may learn to become conscious on earth. However, you will not be born, before that time, only a few moments before, you will return to this life. What will be born there is only a dead body, you as soul and spirit return here. I have connected you with the masters. Did you feel and see it all?’

‘Yes’, I said, ‘it was very clear.’

‘Listen, brother Lantos, I may wake you in the mother, during the pregnancy. After the birth we return to earth, and you will relive the process again, and thus I connect you with the past. You know that this is possible. Are you ready?’

‘I feel ready, master.’

‘Look around you, for a short while you will return to earth, and when you die there you will go back to your home where you will wake up.’

With great speed we went down to the world of the unconscious. The deeper down we went, the stronger I began to feel connected with that world. Soon we reached that sphere and the master said to me: ‘We are now on that place in the sphere where you spoke with your friend Roni. One degree deeper down and that world pulls you inside, and then you cannot free yourself from it anymore. Go, Lantos, go inside. We shall see each other again on earth, there I will speak with you.’

Still deeper down I went, but I remained in contact with the master. An enormous sleep began to overpower me, but I still heard say: ‘Can you hear me, Lantos?’

‘Yes’, I said, ‘but I am so sleepy.’

‘You will sleep, but do you feel how far your former life in which you lived just a moment ago, is now away from you?’

‘I feel nothing but sleep, only sleep, master.’

‘Do you know why this is?’

‘No’, master.’

‘The world of the unconscious is drawing you in, you are now entering it. In the life you will presently be born, everything is unconscious to you. When you would be born on earth then only that for which you will live on earth can become conscious in you. In your former life your artistic feelings were conscious in you, but of all your former lives you knew nothing. Therefore little of this is known on earth. I mean the reincarnation. Later on, when we are together again, I shall clarify that. Farewell, my brother Lantos, this belongs with your cycle of the earth, and everyone will have this same experience, so that he can convince himself of his own life.’

And with that last word I fell into a deep sleep and heard nothing more.