THE CYCLE OF THE SOUL
Part II
The Spiritual Life

Jozef Rulof

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© 2014 'De Eeuw van Christus'

‘Farewell’, I said to Marianne, ‘farewell, I shall not return here any more.’

I made a solemn vow not to defile our love and was ready to leave. But Marianne held me captive. Yet I had to leave. Once more I called a farewell and tore myself away to face the unknown. I wept as I had wept once before when we were being separated. Still it helped me, for I felt a glow of warmth creeping up in me.

Where would I go? The earth was vast, but infinity was even larger. Here there was no end. The human will was enormous in power and the feelings were unfathomable. But yet the human will could bend when the truth of everything was recognized and experienced. This I felt in my innermost, for I had experienced it.

While gliding over the earth I pondered about it all. Many things had happened to me and I had grown wiser. Man did not like to bow his head. Yet he would have to bow before God. Only for his God. God the Creator of heaven and earth forces life – the human being, the soul – to seek what is good. Nature will force him and then the mighty life that takes possession of him makes him tremble. I too bowed my head and begged for forgiveness. My personality was broken and my heart bled. But there was happiness in me also, for I knew that one day I would receive that greatness too. I was floating along and did not need to think about the past any more. While soaring on like this I began to feel a new force rising in me that urged me to go to work. A whole new life opened up for me. I wanted to study man on earth and follow him from one sphere to the next. I would watch and take everything in, so that I could compare it with my own life. It seemed the best way to learn fully about this life. With fresh courage I went on my way.

Many hells I knew already, but there were still more that I would also like to visit. As fast as the thought I raced forward and the stronger I tuned in on a human being the more visible he became to me. I did not feel like staying in one place. I wanted to become spiritually conscious and not remain a living dead, although I never thought I was one. Still I belonged to the living dead. How remarkable were all the things my master had told me. I was his son. And my own child of many centuries ago had brought me a statue which – of all things – I had sculpted myself. Even though it sounded unbelievable I accepted it all.

God did not create people just to let them die. Problems I had had, that were nothing but wonders and that what awaited us all was awe-inspiring. The earth was a school and in that school one had to make something of himself. People had to come into harmony again with life, but they first had to have the wish to do so, for if they did not want to, they learned nothing. If I had felt more love then I would not have killed. By subject my will to myself this life would become different for me. Now I began to get the feel of what God was, and for that Almighty I could now bow my head. People possessed a will that was a heaven or a hell on this side. My soul had already experienced many of these hells and I was now in my last hell from which I must try and extricate myself. For centuries I had been underway already. I was born on earth, died and returned to be born and to die again. Now I understood my cycle of the earth and that of all people. That the earth was the only planet in this mighty universe on which people lived I could not believe any more. For when from the earth one gazed at the universe, tens of thousands could be seen. Some day people over there would find a way to make contact with all those other planets.

I floated through the buildings and saw earthly man. Everything that existed below my own spiritual level was visible to me. Yet I saw only that in which I was interested and what was of concern to my own life. All these human doings did not interest me, for almost everywhere I saw the same things. The one could control himself and the other could not. I saw lugubrious situations, but I let them be and closed my inner eyes or I examined everything in order to understand that life too. I noticed that God had known how to separate the earthly from the spiritual life. The material-belonged to the earth and the spiritual life was where I lived. A spirit could see the material life, but man on earth could not see the spiritual. However, an earth person who had this gift could see in our life, but these were very few. I myself had never had this gift and therefore my life had been one of continuous searching. But I saw that if one began to work on oneself on earth, one was not blind when one entered here. Life on earth served to acquire knowledge of the spiritual treasures. I now saw and felt the many kinds of people and could even point out those who would have to return. Those people were still like animals and they were on earth to become human, though that was not possible in but one short life. Dictators would in the first place have to lay off their lust of power. God knew how that occurred.

Always further I travelled and I got to know the human being on earth. Wherever I went I saw humans and animal-like beings, but I saw that most of those ‘animals’ walked around in human shape and they were dangerous. Horrible as it may sound, in the child I saw already that animal-like being and the older the child and the more it grew up, the more conscious that ‘animal’ became. What I saw here was a mighty experience. At birth they were ‘animals’ already. In a child that could not even say father and mother, in that tiny body there already lived that incomprehensible animal-like person. When it reached the male or female adulthood the ‘animal’ began to feel itself and become aware. How natural it was. This taught me something.

I could see from this side how man cursed his own life. I too had cursed and condemned. Not one person on earth knew himself, otherwise he would not curse. He who put himself on a pedestal would curse and I saw very many on pedestals. I learned to understand that the human being, even when he imagined himself very holy up there, still cursed, because he rebelled against others and himself. The one condemned the other consciously and unconsciously, wittingly and unwittingly, but they all cursed. But man on earth will curse, because he is not cognizant of himself and all the life that lives there. He is already thousands of years old, but he still goes on cursing life. I even saw mothers who condemned their children, because they did not want to obey. He who goes against the human being condemns God for therein lies God’s life.

I learned to see all this during my walk on earth. I also saw that people were burned in hot oil and molten iron and many other tortures. The human being has his own will and as long as he does not control it with the full strength of his being will he continue to curse and will there always be people who must return to earth to learn to control themselves.

I travelled from one city to the other and so the years passed. Still I went on and obtained knowledge of man and his life as no person on earth had. Everything must be set right, I learned, not even one thought is for free. Not one person can escape that.

Into the deepest hells I descended and found that there too man cursed, but those people could be recognized. On earth, however, I saw bearers of the cross and people who were considered holy, in whose life lived something horrible that made one shiver and recoil in horror, when felt in one’s deepest innermost being.

As I told you before that by observing this I came to know myself quite well and I was grateful for the opportunity to see all this. I made a firm resolution to break my own ego down for if I was not able to I would have to go on walking endlessly and my situation would remain a hell. With every step I took I bowed my head deeper and deeper until I kissed the earth on which I walked. The love I now felt and had, could not yet be compared to the love of those who had reached the spheres of light, and that’s where I wanted to go. Always further I went. Hours I spent with the people and watched their every move. From that I learned and so I also learned to distinguish day from night. In the night I saw the demons better than by day, but they were always around and in people. I visited churches and palaces and learned about religions. I visited deathbeds and saw that many were awaited here. And so time passed and I walked on and on, for I still did not know enough. At the same time I became familiar with the deepest of hells, but for that kind of life I could not find the words. Human monstrosities I saw, like pre-animal monsters. But one day they too will start to work at themselves. Because of these observations something in me began to thaw out. Ever more sincerely I began to thank God, even for the agonies and grief I had suffered, and I was grateful to God that now I could go higher towards the spheres of light.

When I had a fortune and light on earth I was not satisfied, but now that I only see darkness I am thankful. Because I obtained more self-awareness I knew what I could expect to find and what I must do. Here in that darkness I felt happy with everything. Watching life and other people made me feel alive too. I felt that I was waking up.

Years went by, but it could also have been centuries. I continued to observe how people lived, while around and in me changes took place. The earth changed and one generation followed another. Because I began to get the feeling of what the Creator of heaven and earth intended, my own feelings deepened and I could be thankful for all that I had experienced in the regions of hell.

In one of the hells I was attacked and dragged across the ground; and how they beat me up! I made one wrong move after another, and therefore I was attacked, but it taught me something. Over and over again I connected myself with them, and so I learned and came to know all those hells. What happened to me there was horrible, but it opened my eyes at last, I began to feel differently and learned how to protect myself. Still more intensely did I begin to thank God. I was alive and not dead, and that made me glad. Slowly I began to realize this and I accepted my sorrow and grief in a different way than before. I was delighted that I was going to live, and could be very happy with only the little bit of love that man on earth despised.

How badly misunderstood is life on earth and how they trample on love. Love! Do you, reader, know what this holy power of feeling means? Now that I felt this I could thank God for all my struggles and those still awaiting me. And so I became a different person and that pleased me much. Ah, on earth you do not realize what you possess. Were I allowed to be born on earth once more I would do everything differently. How beautiful I would make my life. Now I lived in a hell and still I was happy. I felt that God loved me and cared for me. Therefore, do you hear, humans on earth, I could bow my head and shout out my happiness in this darkness, so that it could be heard on earth. Now I have forgotten all my struggle. But what is suffering hunger and thirst on earth compared to everything I saw here? Therefore people on earth curse when they are not satisfied with what they have.

I prayed to God not to punish me anymore, for I learned how to punish myself and to direct razor sharp concentration on myself, so that I learned to tame my will. I could not be persuaded anymore to do any of those things, for within me I had Marianne’s great love, and that love I would never defile.

To view from our world human beings and the earth, is a mighty study. It is a merging into the person, it is feeling and accepting, but what then comes to you is like poison and I had to arm myself against it. Here I learned to see that life is not what you think it is, and that God did not mean it to be that way. Man lives himself out physically and spiritually; that is not the way and it is wrong. It means destruction. And that is pre-animal-like, while man, as my master told me, is godly.

Wherever I went and stayed I saw human- and astral beings. The one joined with the other and so man on earth became only a tool in the hands of evil. I saw that the human committed murder, and yet he did not do it himself; even children were born because of the astral beings! Isn’t it horrible to have children that are contaminated by another feeling? I saw it all and learned from it. In this way humanity was being ruined spiritually, and yet I could do nothing to prevent it.

But I have the feeling that some day I shall give all of myself to help and save those people. None of you will be able to see life on earth from this viewpoint, but yet it is the truth. It is man who curses all that is beautiful, among which the most sacred of feelings. I myself do not want this anymore and will work to destroy my ego. When I succeed, no demon will be able to exert influence upon me anymore. To that end I shall close off my inner feelings and only seek the higher things. I shall not provide them with the opportunity to live out their pleasures through me.

They inhabit the earth, and the young life born there is animated by them. Do you know what that means? Can you grasp the significance of this hideous happening? I saw this holy event, that should and could be holy, being defiled by demons, however, man let them do so. Then, when their children grow up and scorn parental love, they ask: ‘Why and wherefore do I have such bad children? How can God allow that?’ They fail to see that they themselves experienced this great and mighty event in a coarse-material manner.

And so all this brought me to meditating and it woke me up completely. How I shivered when I observed man in his most intimate inner life. My experiences cried to heaven.

Now I would not be able to kill anymore, I had learned how to love. I began to feel awe for God, Who notwithstanding everything loves His children. I made a sacred resolution to love all life that I would meet. I learned to master powers that I could not have learned on earth, because they belong to the life of the spirit. This sharpened my concentration and I acquired the skill to fine-tune myself when I was being attacked, and withdraw into my own hell. Many unfortunate people who were calling for their fathers or mothers I was able to help. But I continued on, for I felt that this was not the time for me yet to give myself fully to this kind of work. All those levels of hell, all those animal-like situations I compared with my own life, and I saw and felt how far away mankind still was from the veritable truth.

People of the earth, from this side I would like to call out to you: Work at yourself, restrain your own will, step down from your high pedestals. Do not allow yourself to go under because of weakness. When you enter here, hope that you do not belong to those who live in the deepest darkness, for then you will be deeply, very deeply unhappy. Put yourself under control, do not give in to weakness, so that your life has not been for nothing. On this side you will stand face to face with your own life. Every thought must be made good. Everything, everything is recorded and fixed. And so you will and must find out that nothing, absolutely nothing, can be hidden. Your sins you will atone, all of them, and you will make good what you did wrong. Bow your head, throw off your pride and lust for power and love all that lives.

Hurry, brothers and sisters, for your end approaches. Know that we can go higher and that when you enter here your loved ones will be waiting for you, but then you must have love also and live as God wishes all His children to live. Work and pray but do not ask. Don’t do what I did, you only destroy yourself. Do not search, but believe. Accept, humans of the earth, accept that death does not mean dead, but living. Accept that love is the highest God gave man. He, who feels love is awake and God will guide and strengthen him. Then you will come out as victors.

I knew when I had begun my walk. When, however, I concentrated on the earth, I was shocked to find that centuries had gone by. Centuries of practical experience and still I knew nothing. I only knew the human being on earth and still I lived in hell. Several generations I had followed on earth but never I had concentrated on the time. When I saw that, it came home to me that many centuries were needed before a person could reach the spheres of light. Only then did I begin to realize how I might get out of here, because I wanted to go further and higher. I was still a living dead and yet how much knowledge had I not acquired already? But I then understood that, though I had learned much, I had spent all that time for myself, as man on earth does too. They too are learned and yet poor in love. For thousands of years I could go on, but still my hell would not change. I must serve and make myself useful, I must do something, otherwise I would not get out of here. And I would try to do just that. How I did it I shall tell you.