THE CYCLE OF THE SOUL
Part II
The Spiritual Life

Jozef Rulof

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© 2014 'De Eeuw van Christus'

My parents would be going back to earth and I could understand that. I could hear them already over there: ‘How and why can God allow this?’

It was clear to me now. All the other questions and occurrences I would let rest for the time being deep down in my subconscious. One by one they would dissolve. I would continue as long as I had not completely run out of questions and when I was completely empty then I would reconsider again. I could think in this manner for centuries, but I had to get on, further, always further!

I now concentrated on my own life. Where to, Lantos? You have come to here, but now get on with it! Now I concentrated on the astral world, where I entered after a short moment. I followed the voice of my heart and that voice led me to the place where I was born. I wanted to know everything about my childhood. In the meantime I had learned to orientate myself in several ways, so that it went effortless. I glided across the earth and felt that I was leaving this country behind me. I felt no obstructions and passed right through everything. I knew that I would arrive at the place where I had spent my youth. These forces worked unfailingly.

I was curious to see how I would find everything over there. My parents now lived on this side and naturally their possessions had changed hands. But whose hands? And how had their life’s end been on earth? Had they died in the normal manner? And Marianne? That too I wanted to find out, in short, everything that concerned her and my life, that is if it was possible. Wherever I looked I saw life. When I sped along very fast I saw or felt nothing of all this, but when going slowly I saw astral man moving along like me, but only when we were of the same spiritual attunement, otherwise it was not possible to see them. Everybody pursued his own way. The one to help, the other to destroy life. And others again to become conscious, as I was doing. For I was not conscious, I was still a living dead. Consciousness, yes, that was what I wanted to acquire. I felt that I was nearing my destination and coming into my parental estate. I had directed my thoughts towards it and here I was.

Immediately I walked towards my parent’s house, for there the past would be unveiled for me. Emschor had promised me this and he would keep his word, no doubt about that. I was walking again on my own ground, the soil that once burned under my feet and which I had left behind. Now, however, everything was different.

Nothing but a ruin I saw where once my parents house had stood. Could that be or had I made a mistake? The old castle was a heap of rubble, yet I felt that this was the house where I once lived. What happened here? I wanted to leave but felt the well-known power pervade me. ‘Stay’, I heard, ‘presently I shall be with you.’

Truly, I had seen this ruin once before and my thoughts went back to the time I had seen this vision. It happened at the time that I was going away and now I saw that my vision had come true. But what had destroyed our home? The elements? That I had also seen once. It made me run home, only to find that nothing had happened. Now only the foundations were all that was left of the once proud castle.

I felt the power of my master return into me and mentally I said to him: ‘Welcome, master, I am very grateful to you.’

Next I heard say: ‘It is I, Lantos, Emschor.’

I asked: ‘Did I make a mistake, master?’

‘No’, came his answer, ‘you were right. Here you have lived and from here you set out into the wide world. On this side the voice of your heart never deceives you when you continue to follow it; all you need to do is listen.’

‘May I ask some questions?’

‘As many as you like, I am ready.’

I sensed where I had to begin, for I saw my whole life before me.

My first question was: ‘Why in my youth did I have such an aversion for everything wealthy, for those children and their parties? Where did those feelings come from? Can you answer me that?’

‘I’ll give you an answer, so listen and try to understand me. It was I, Lantos!’

‘You? Why did you do that?’

‘Those feelings were already in you, but I woke them up. Those incomprehensible forces belonged to the past. In this life you were going to enter an other phase and that was the life you have lived and left. I mean your last life on earth. I did nothing more than bring those forces to consciousness. I worked in on you and then you acted. Each human being comes to earth for a set purpose, as I told you already, to make amends. In you lay that power, thus it was your will to undertake an other life. You arrived at that spiritual attunement, not in the life where you committed suicide, but in the life before that. However, I shall stay with your last life, later on you will be able to review these other lives I mentioned just now and then I can consciously connect you. Ask me if what I told you is not clear. I will answer you.’

‘If I understand you correctly’, I said, ‘then I came to earth in that life, so that I could disengage myself from it and escape from our material possessions?’

‘So it is. Very clearly felt.’

‘Is this a law?’

‘The law of cause and effect.’

‘Thank you’, I said. ‘Did you help me with everything?’

‘Yes, with everything.’

‘Also with art?’

‘That too.’

‘Then I have much to ask you.’

‘Go on, Lantos, I am at your disposal.’

‘Tell me, master, was I an artist in a former life?’

‘Yes, in ancient Egypt.’

‘What did you say?’

‘In ancient Egypt.’

‘How wondrous and remarkable is what you say.’

‘They appear wonders to you, but all those wonders and problems are values of life, which the soul has experienced.’

‘Do you know where I have developed those feelings of art?’

‘That too you will experience.’

‘Thank you’, I said. ‘Can you tell me about it now?’

‘No, later, on the place where you have lived, thus in a short while.’

‘Does that happen in the same way as before?’

‘Yes, it is easier to connect you with your past there, it is difficult from here.’

‘Can you explain to me why I behaved like that in my youth? I mean, what protected me and from where came this contempt for my family?’

‘This has connection with your first question. In you lay the feeling to go away. You wanted to free yourself, but you could not quite sense that in your youth. It was all too deep, even now you cannot fathom the depth of these feelings.’

‘No’, I agreed, ‘I can’t, but I feel what you mean. Thank you, master. And so, in this you also awakened me?’

‘Yes, by raising those feelings towards consciousness you felt what you had to do. The contempt for our lineage surfaced, because you wanted to seek the higher things. Is this clear to you?’

‘Yes, I do understand you. But what if those feelings had not been present in me? What then?’

‘Then many centuries would have gone by. Still eventually you would have attained this condition of spiritual strength. That is unavoidable. Those feelings you have acquired for yourself in other lives. Every person will sooner or later come to the very same attunement of feeling. He may experience it in a different manner, but in the end it works out the same and he wants it in his inner self, though not consciously, himself. Therefore a human being is deep and these are problems for him. But all these problems, as I told you already, have a meaning, which is the passing into a higher spiritual attunement, acquired in other lives. This belongs to the cycle of the earth. What a person has stolen from an other in one life, he will make good in an other situation.’

‘Then these possessions which I did not want, did I steal them from someone else?’

‘Not you, but I.’

‘But what do I have to do with that?’

‘You were my son.’

‘How is that, did you say your son, your child?’

‘My child, Lantos. You are my boy, but of centuries ago.’

‘You are taking me ever deeper. You tell me miracles, nothing but wonders and problems. I, your child?’

‘My boy, my child, Lantos.’

Problems, I thought, of which I had never dreamed.

‘Isn’t man a miracle? Not a problem? I shall explain this to you later on. Go on, then you will be able to understand it better.’

‘You told me that every person experiences this. Are they being guided too?’

‘Everyone, because man has connections with thousands of others, and all those people have the same things in common. However, from this side man, the soul, is being influenced on earth when this is possible. They all have come to a higher attunement, otherwise it is not possible.’

‘Thoughts came to me sometimes, that were faster than mine. Can you explain that to me?’

‘It was my strong concentration speaking through you.’

‘Thank you, master, I understand it very well. Then you were able to reach me.’

‘True, just like now. This influence is the same. Now you know how we join with man on earth from this side.’

‘And that is why my feelings of art came to the surface again?’

‘Only because of that, your feelings are correct.’

‘Remarkable, everything is so grand and deep.’

‘You experience wonders, but that can only happen because I have connected myself with you. A higher attunement can make connections with those below his attunment of life. This will now be clear to you. Passing on and connecting that is what makes you grow in consciousness. You will get to know those powers. Only then you will enter into a higher and different life where great happiness awaits you. Never forget this.’

I still could see myself. It was extraordinary the things I now experienced.

Then I heard: ‘It is my will and powers that let you see.’

I asked: ‘You always know what I am thinking. Is it that simple?’

‘Didn’t you do it with others?’

‘Yes, I have experienced it already, but to have it happen again and again is like magic and I cannot stop thinking about it.’

‘You can see, Lantos, how wonderful these forces are.’

‘I do want to acquire them, master.’

‘Continue like this and look for what is good, then it will change in you. Through the change you begin to sense life more and you will bow your head for Him Who governs all of this.’

‘To experience this is like having a dream. Are my feelings right in this?’

‘The life here before you, which is the time of your youth, you view in a visionary situation. You have a bright mind, but only through my powers. You could not manage it on your own strength. Only by desiring to do good will you acquire these powers. I stress this again and again, because it is the only possibility to advance higher.’

‘You are not dealing with someone who is ungrateful, master. I will, I am sure of it. You are Love, master, and feel love better than I.’

‘Would I not assist my own child with love? Would you act differently? Will parents when they are cognizant and when they know all these phenomena and problems not act like me? Is love not the force that joins us, that moves mountains and gives us and all others life? Does love not connect us with the highest there is, with our Father in heaven? That’s where our way leads us.’

‘I am still poor in love, master, I am still poor.’

Whereupon I heard: ‘But you are busy to acquire this love. You want help and that is already a great asset. It tells that you are willing to carry your cross and by carrying it you bow to higher powers. That is the way, the only way, my boy.’

‘Am I still non-conscious then?’

‘Alas, you are a living dead.’

‘It is hard’, I said, ‘to have to hear that.’

‘That hardness you will lay off. When you live life, you will begin to change. Always do the good things, otherwise this is impossible.’

‘Then the people on earth are not yet conscious?’

‘No, none of them. Of all those millions of beings now living on earth not one is spiritually conscious. Only then when a person enters the first spiritual attunement on this side, will he get consciousness. That consciousness is the love he has acquired by doing good and living for others.’

‘I haven’t done anything for others yet’, I said.

‘That time too will come. Soon you will do something for somebody else, only have patience. Here you can only do the thing you feel inwardly, that lives within you and that power is love. To feel love for all life will bring you awakening.’

‘In my childhood I made my own God, why did I do that? Can you explain that to me?’

‘Already in your youth lay the longing for happiness and higher things. Thus desires, that showed themselves in this way. You wanted to learn about life and about God, but you misunderstood those feelings; that was what they meant.’

‘Did you also help me with that?’

‘Yes, I urged you to look for the higher life and every thought you cherished towards that end, woke you up a little more and forced you to continue to follow that road.’

‘Thank you, master, I understand this, even now I am no different.’

‘So it is. Today you are conscious, but at that time you acted unconsciously.’

‘You say that I am conscious, but a while ago you told me that I was a living dead, what must I make of that?’

‘Are you not reviewing your childhood?’

‘Yes, all this is played back to me, I see and feel it.’

‘Well then, you are conscious of it, but only through my powers. You see, feel and hear, but that seeing, hearing and feeling is not spiritual consciousness. You still possess nothing! If that were so, then you would be in a different sphere, namely the spheres of light. But you are still surrounded by darkness and therefore you are not spiritually conscious. This consciousness happens because I connect you. Therefore we also know that man on earth is not conscious. They are conscious only in a material way over there, they feel love physically and that is a different consciousness. When I speak of spiritual consciousness, it means your attunement in eternity. You still feel in an earthly manner which is in a material way. We know the physical life, thus the material consciousness, the spiritual consciousness and the cosmic consciousness. You are still living in your material life and are busy discarding that life. You are trying to give yourself an other kind of consciousness. Is this clear to you?’

‘Yes, I feel what you mean, thank you. Whenever I was myself in my youth – for I do remember those feelings I had – had you then withdrawn yourself?’

‘Yes, then you were on your own. Do not forget that each human being has his own will and that the higher spirit cannot and will not exert influence on your life, because he knows this. You must act on your own, we can only protect and guide. And so we cannot change anything to your inner life. Not one spirit may carry the burdens of man. Every person carries his own cross. Still we can help by guiding you in the right direction. Consequently it is not in my power to make you live your life as I would wish. That is not possible and that is why you felt two conflicting moods that still belonged together. When I felt and saw that you were taking the wrong way, I helped you by urging you to follow that other way. Silently I exerted my influence on you, what you have clearly felt.’

‘I modelled a sun and clouds, why did I do that?’

‘You were searching, you longed for happiness of the spirit.’

‘Is this connected with my actions in many other things?’

‘Yes, with your whole childhood, that drive was embedded in all your feelings.’

‘I spent hours gazing at the sky, did that also belong with it?’

‘Yes, the desire to know, to know about God, to have spiritual happiness brought you in that situation.’

‘The time my sun rained away, young as I was, I felt that it had something to do with my life. Was this true?’

‘You already have experienced it for you know that your life was ruined. I let you feel that in your youth.’

‘You knew that already such a long time before?’

‘Yes, I viewed it in your life.’

‘That is extraordinary to see so far ahead.’

‘I explained to you already that a human being can be fathomed, but only by those who themselves possess these powers. The way that you see things at this moment, I saw in your life.’

‘Then you could not intervene? I mean, could you not have changed my life? Did this have to happen?’

‘Yes, everything is fixed, this is a godly law. In your earlier situation, while in the world of the unconscious, I have explained this to you. Thus you returned to earth with a fixed purpose and nothing can change that. Not even a spirit or human being can, no matter how high they may be.’

‘If I sense correctly, then my passing over, when I made an end to my own life had no significance and falls outside that law?’

‘No, you would have died on your set time.’

‘Then I acted myself and not under cosmic influence?’

‘That is well felt, so it is.’

‘All that suffering then was for nothing?’

‘No, not so, it shook you awake.’

‘Yes, I have gained knowledge, horrible as it was. But from where did he who urged me to do it know me?’

‘From an other life.’

‘Was he aware of that?’

‘Yes, listen carefully to the explanation. Were you aware of your feelings for art?’

‘Yes, I was.’

‘Well then, why not he? Within him lay hate, a hate for one or another human being. That being was you. He hated you, could hate you, because once very long ago you tormented him, tortured him. Those forces and feelings dissolve only then, cease to exist, when everything has been made good. You would meet him in an earthly life and that has happened. And so, my Lantos, nothing but cause and effect. You have experienced the effect of one of your causes. He knew what awaited you and therefore, only therefore, he was connected with you. You tortured him once – as you will presently see – and therefore you had to make amends.’

‘But what if I had not made an end to my life, what then?’

‘Then you would have found the demons lying in wait for you on this side. You would have been assaulted, they would have dragged you along, tortured and beaten you. Yet then you would also have felt the cause for this event. Afterwards he would leave; in him and in you something would have changed. The past dissolved in it, so too the law of cause and effect, so too the human being, the soul who had to live through it and who had to atone. He had been drawn to you unawares, but later these feelings became conscious and culminated in the awareness. For did not you become an artist? Weren’t these your wishes? Have they not come true? Feelings they are, but yet causes and effects, nothing and nothing else.’

‘Will I know now why and how that happened in the past?’

‘Later, when I can connect you with the past. You will then be glad that all is done already, that you have atoned.’

‘Then my death and passing on would have come a few years later?’

‘That is correct, you have sensed that very well, so it is.’

‘Everything is now very clear to me, master, and I thank you. Did you also influence my parents?’

‘No, they lived their own lives. They could not be reached and will proceed to other lives, so that they can raise themselves to that level of feelings, of love. Much they will have to learn. In the situation they will come now, it means that they will take up this time, they will have to work hard for their existence. They and thousands of others need that, and this is only possible on earth.’

‘But why did this have to happen to me and not to them? Aren’t they of our lineage too?’

‘You belong to me as will be shown to you later. You are and were the last one of our family.’

‘Ah, now I begin to understand you. When I am sensing this, then you are the cause and I am the effect.’

‘We two are one, Lantos, we are linked together, just as the law of cause and effect has one and the same meaning. One cause will be made good and this has now happened. You have seen it happen.’

‘Then I would not have been able to give descendants to our family, however much my parents wished for it?’

‘This you also feel correctly. No, your cycle on earth was coming to an end. I was the one who consolidated all this. You were my child and we both shall make good. Your parents lived from our assets, which I once took from someone else. That was centuries ago. But in your last earthly life that past would reveal itself and this counts for every human being too. They all will get experience, return and make good, no one can escape it. All is struggle, sorrow and grief. You have felt it. That struggle lay in you, but I supported you in everything, to go on, to accept and to do what you inwardly felt. I ask you, would you want to have the possessions of others if you knew that they were stolen?’

‘No’, I said. ‘I would not want that.’

‘Well then, you would go away and leave all these possessions behind, because your inner feelings were that far advanced. You would have become a ruler otherwise, is that clear to you?’

‘Yes, master,’

‘All that time your parents lived of the stolen goods, of the possessions of others, but one day it shall be taken away from them and it will all dissolve.’

‘Then a curse rested on our wealth?’

‘Yes, the curse of the past.’

‘Then this is also clear to me, I have felt it. Now that I know this I understand why I went away. I wanted to leave, something drove me from home and that meant that I was gradually extricating myself from the past. How mighty is all this, master, how miraculous and natural.’

‘These are laws, my son, laws of nature, it is God’s holy Guidance.’

‘Others come back and give their possessions away to others, is that a similar situation as mine?’

‘Sometimes, not always, but usually it is of one and the same power and nothing else.’

‘But then it is not doing good, but making good?’

‘So it is, but man is not aware of that, he imagines he is doing good, though he is only paying his debts.’

Deep, how very deep, I thought. It was not good and not bad, he only complied with a law and made good what he once did wrong. What was being explained to me was mighty and I fervently thanked the master.

‘Do others force them to do that?’ I asked.

‘Yes, others exhort them to it and, of course, have some connection with them.’

‘How it all fits together, Emschor.’

‘That is life, one thing is linked with the other and merges with the previous life. These are laws, God’s holy Laws, conditions, connections and attunements in spirit, thus causes and effects. I am sure you feel that all is God’s will, God knows all His children and knows what they will do in their life on earth. Whatever it may be, in whatever situation they will be born there, poor or rich, all is firmly fixed and it shall happen. And that happening is God’s holy Will that governs and leads everything. God knows what that soul will find on earth, because every human being returns there to receive either good or evil, happiness or poverty, strife or misery. They have brought it upon themselves in a previous situation. It has happened to me and to you and to thousands of others it is still going to happen. Others again are on earth to serve and give all of themselves for their fellow human beings. Later you will see and experience this and then it will become clear to you. As you hear, it is always again experience and living it, until you have acquired the spiritual love and enter the spheres of light.’

‘Do you know Marianne?’

‘Yes, I know her. Here you have played with her, I followed you in everything.’

‘Do you know how she died? Can you tell me about it?’

‘Yes, but later, when we have made some progress, so have patience a bit longer.’

‘Why, if I may ask you this question, did she act so strangely? I mean in our childhood.’

‘In her were the same feelings you had, her connection with you, but she too was not aware of them; and she will not be, even when she is being born again. But at some future time she will get that far, and then she will know that she is yours. You already know it now, but she will come to these feelings in time. Both of you first have to make amends, she on earth, you on this side. Therefore she acted according to her inner urge. Still she must live her own life just like you.

It will be clear to you that the things people do not understand, but still feel in their earthly lives, belong to the past. Some day, however, it becomes aware but that will be on this side. Over there on earth this is not possible. You cannot see beyond the veil and feel the depth of your own life, nor can you see through all those centuries. As I mentioned before this ability belongs only to those who possess those powers and they are the cosmic awakened ones, the masters, who have reached the highest spheres, who assist me and you with convincing humanity of their continuing existence and of the cycle of the soul. Besides that they live there to make good and to learn to love what God’s life is. That is the road these cosmic masters have travelled and the road you, I and millions of others will travel.

She, Marianne, thus acted according to her inner feelings which lay deeply hidden within her. You two are twin souls, you are one in everything, in feeling, in understanding and in love. But this merging you will receive only on this side. Only later, my Lantos, for you are now working at earning it, do you hear, earning it! You now can no more love an other, that unity of feeling transmits itself from one to the other. In it you feel yourself, know yourself, in it you feel God’s holy Love. This Love is powerful and because it is so powerful you will have to earn this great power which means happiness and bliss. You on this side, Marianne on earth, she will now have to atone for what she once did to your friend Roni. This I will also show you, but presently.’

‘Then the feeling when I was walking around with the statue of Marianne in my arms, was right?’

‘Yes, but they were my feelings. I put this truth in you, which you felt but did not understand. Now that all is clear to you, I advise you to accept the facts.’

‘Have I met her before on earth?’

Yes, you knew her, you met her many centuries ago, but both of you destroyed your happiness. Mankind will destroy what he does not understand and yet belongs to him, to his inner life. But you were not yet that far. Therefore, all of the people on earth are not conscious yet, they are not far enough yet to receive this mighty and holy love. They think that they have this love, but those are own thoughts and wishes that hold no spiritual truth. They have not the slightest notion of spiritual love nor of spiritual unity and understanding. What they feel is part of the material life, and as such, are earthly, material feelings. These feelings are far, far removed from the spiritual happiness.

Everyone, whoever he may be, will have to develop himself. But that cost sorrow, struggle and grief; yet only in this way can this mighty and great joy be acquired. In this, the life of the spirit, all people will be united.’

‘Then nobody on earth receives this love?’

‘But yes, on earth there are people living together who are already that far, but all those beings belong to the privileged ones, for they are one in everything. However, if there is but one thought transmitted from one to the other that is misunderstood, then that connection has no spiritual value and is just an earthly connection. The connection will be of the spirit only when the people, man and woman, possess this love and carry it inwardly. But then they belong to our world and they are children in spirit; do you hear, children. The twin love for which you are waiting and which you are busy earning, is the holiest of unions we know on this side and is the highest happiness God can bestow on His children. This love gives, it serves; she merges with him and he with her, they live through their feelings, in prayer and in faith, while they work for one goal, to bring happiness to mankind and all the other life that God has created.’

‘Then you need not tell me more. I am not as far as that yet.’

‘Thank you. It is so nice that you are beginning to understand me. Carry on this way, then I can and will clear up many of the wonders.’

‘Did meeting her again and again make me conscious of her love?’

‘Yes, that is true.’

‘So we had to separate?’

‘That was necessary and then again, it was not necessary. You could have conquered it through struggle, by accepting a life like a hell, which would teach you to love. Who wants that on earth? Yet, that is the way. Thus the being, the soul, will meet that certain other being who cosmically belongs with him. Again God’s Will and a law of which no man can change anything. But man on earth does not accept, he leaves and searches and searches so long till he thinks he has found his goal and in it he sees his love. Therefore will the human being, will the soul, return to earth and people will meet each other always again because they are one, live one life, which in the life of the soul signifies their cycle on earth. Therefore, my dear Lantos, is the earth the planet to which we belong. The earth as well as our life serves as the purifying sphere. Once we have passed these the soul begins to prepare itself to enter the fourth degree of universal attunement. There are seven degrees, and you can feel that thousands of years will elapse before we are that far.’

‘Have you already received this sublimity?’

‘Yes, Lantos, this sublimity has been given me.’

‘And are you alone?’

‘No, nevermore will I be alone, because that possession is mine, it rests within me. Can you feel the deep significance of this?’

‘Yes, I feel it, for you have merged with that possession.’

‘That is so. No separation is possible any more, because I live at that attunement. It is mine.’

‘Also hers?’

‘We are one, Lantos, and will remain one, even at a distance. No distance exists any more in our life when souls are one and feel one love. What I feel and happens to me, happens to her. Do you understand how deep, but how holy this connection is?’

‘That lies far away from me still.’

‘No, when you continue to seek the good things, you will receive this mighty force within a few centuries.’

‘Centuries, you say?’

‘Centuries, Lantos. But what does that matter when you live in eternity? What is a century? What is a lifetime on earth? Nothing at all. You will strive to make yourself worthy to receive those treasures of the spirit. One day you will pray to God to allow you to wait a little longer. You will call out to Him that you are not ready yet, that you are frightened that once again you will not understand this love. Do you sense how enormous this possession, the power and the joy are to feel this love? To be allowed to sense in an other being the very same love as you have and are? Once again, what are centuries? That it is necessary and takes so long I will illustrate for you with a short story.

Listen: A child is born on earth and reaches the adult age as a man or a woman. Then it becomes itself. It merges into that life consciously, at least for life on earth. Follow that life and see; it does not go higher but descends; it sinks deeper and deeper down to die afterwards. Seventy years and more went by. Nothing has this person learned. Do you hear me well? Seventy years, nearly a century. Do you get an idea of what a century means on this side? How many centuries will be necessary before this most holy feeling can be received?’

‘I accept, master, there’s nothing else I can do. I will wait, I promise you. I dreamt in my younger years that I would become an artist, were those your feelings also?’

‘Mine, Lantos, I put that dream in you and let you dream events that would once come true. Thus I saw ahead, but all of it lay in your inner self.’

‘Also that dream that I would commit murder?’

‘That too, for you would forget yourself. It taught you something and you have learned to control yourself in the future.’

‘Was it not possible to avoid this?’

‘Once again: you have to live your own life and not through me or any others.’

‘And what about evil? They brought me here and they should not have done that either. Isn’t that power the same?’

‘My question for you is, is it alright to do wrong?’

‘No’, I said, ‘it isn’t.’

‘Well then, they who did it will have to make it good again. You have atoned, but he went on destroying others. But some day there will come an end to that for him too and he will seek to do good things. When you will meet him again and he will ask you for help, what will you do?’

‘Help him!’

‘So it must be, Lantos, one day he too will possess these powers and then only will you be brothers in spirit. But he will have to make good what he did to others, to the very last deed. You, however, stand at the beginning of your eternal life, but you will have to develop yourself spiritually.’

I further asked him: ‘The tranquillity that came over me when my parents, especially my father, spoke to me so roughly, was that calm yours?’

‘Yes, mine, it was my will.’

‘He beat and kicked me, does he have to make that good?’

‘He will make it up, he cannot escape that and some day he will gladly do so.’

‘The happiness I felt was your happiness, wasn’t it?’

‘Yes, Lantos, I was happy that you continued that way at all cost.’

‘Had I not been able to control myself?’

‘Then the consequences would have been uncalculable.’

‘Thank you, master, I fully understand. Has our estate gone into other hands?’

‘Yes, the rightful owners got it back again, for it was their property. Many centuries ago I stole it from them. But you see, some day the rightful owner will get his possessions back. All this happened to you in your previous earthly life, others only apprehend it centuries later. Know, that God does not recognize dictators and that God is Love only. The thoughts of your parents thus were wrong. However, they knew nothing about it, and will only accept this much later in an other situation, when they learn about themselves and life. So, they too follow your way and will have to mature spiritually. Let us hope that they will get that far in the next life on earth. You were the last of their line, as I already said, and would leave your home. But in this life everything would be revealed to you and this happens to everyone.’

It’s enormous, I thought, not one person can make changes to any of this, in fact they do not even know about it.

I went on with my questions: ‘Who destroyed these buildings?’

‘The elements.’

Then my feelings had been correct, I thought, but I heard: ‘I let you see that through my will and my powers.’

‘Where were my parents when it happened?’

‘At home, they were crushed. Here lie two people, your father and mother.’

‘Are they buried on this spot?’

‘No, in a place in the woods. That was their wish.’

‘Was it God’s Will that it collapsed?’

‘No, not this. This has nothing to do with God’s Will, even though it belongs to the working of it. Their passing over was fixed.’

‘Thus accidental?’

‘No, working, happening, but only their end, not this collapse. You will learn about these laws later, it is not possible for me to explain them now.’

‘You let this happen and showed it to me beforehand, to what end?’

‘So that I can convince you now of your cycle on earth. You would not have been able to accept it otherwise. But as you see, all those events are connected and fit together.’

‘You are powerful, master Emschor.’

‘Don’t say that any more, for I am only a child yet in spirit. Only God is powerful. You must now at the same time accept that there are no miracles or problems, for these miracles and problems dissolve as soon as we come to know them. Thus a spiritual law received connection with an earthly event – in this case the elements that destroyed their possessions – and this meant their passing over. It tells us that matter and spirit are one. Do you feel what I mean?’

I thought about it for a long time and finally said: ‘When I have an accident it is not necessarily pre-ordained?’

‘That’s what I mean. If an accident occurs because of carelessness it is not a cosmic happening. Yet on the other hand it does have spiritual significance, but as I told you, it is too deep to talk about that already.’

‘How has your life on earth been and how was mine when I belonged to you?’

‘I will show you.’

The earth sank away before me and all life disappeared before my eyes. I remained, however, in the same spot. The old castle began to take shape in front of me and everything started to change and seemed to come alive again. I saw this very clearly before me. Next I saw another picture. In one of the rooms of this magnificent castle I saw a being and I recognized that being immediately. Emschor, I whispered in thoughts, for it was he. He was wearing strange garb, but I recognized that outfit because my father had worn something similar.

‘What you will see next belongs to the time before I could call the estate mine.’

The picture faded out and an other scene became visible. I saw Emschor on horseback, but he was a hireling. He wore clothes that were fashionable in those times. A battle was in progress and he together with many others surrounded an other man’s estate, which they captured. He was victorious, but deceived his master. Many were slaughtered, one of them his master. I could see all this very clearly.

This picture also faded out and then I saw him again in one of the rooms of this castle, lying in bed. In a corner of the room an other being now began to materialize, and in that being I recognized myself. Tall and slender I stood there. I could feel that something was amiss and next I was being connected with myself in feeling so that I knew what was going on. My father was ill and he wanted me to leave this place, for he wanted to bequeath this inheritance to others. It was a devilish plan. I fully understood it, because Emschor had shown it to me beforehand. I did not comply with his request and refused. I was not going to let myself be pushed off my property. He spoke to me and pleaded to grant him his wish. I steadfastly refused and thought he was mentally ill. Every word that was spoken in that time I understood. Then I talked with him and succeeded in persuading him.

After that scene came an other. Before me I saw several human beings. I was one of them and seated at the same table as my father. I saw him rise up and while looking straight at me I heard him speak these words: ‘I will that he who bears the name Lantos Dumonché shall take over this estate and care for so... and so... Do you agree with this?’ This question was directed towards me. A sum of money was decided upon and the names were recorded. I answered in the affirmative and the documents were written up and sealed.

That scene also faded away and I saw another one that made me tremble. Before me I saw my father, he had taken his own life. I knew why and understood everything.

Again came another picture. I was with some other beings. A second document was written up and the first one destroyed. It read: ‘I will that he who bears the name Lantos Dumonché shall take charge of this estate upon coming of age and be instituted as its ruler.’ The real document had been fraudulently altered.

After that I saw myself with my spouse and some children. Two boys and a girl she gave me.

In the next picture that followed I saw myself on horseback, ready to ride into battle. I commanded the hundreds that were following me. In the distance lay the aim of our expedition. Quick as the wind we rode forwards and captured the possessions of someone else. Many were killed however. My adversary I recognized. It was the man from my dungeon, the demon!

The next picture startled me. We were in our torture chamber and forced him to surrender his possessions. His facial expression was devilish as he cursed me. It now was clear to me what I had done to him. But he too was a robber and murderer. His possessions had also been stolen.

Again the picture faded and I saw my death, which this time was a natural cause. My child succeeded me, and after that one generation followed after another, including my parents. How wondrously was all this interwoven and I had to accept the truth. Mighty is the past, I mused.

‘Observe, Lantos, battles, robbery and violence. But the violence is destroyed. They whose possessions I stole, have had it returned to them. Your parents were the last ones who lived here. You moved away and ended your life by your own hand. I could go on indefinitely and show you more situations and events, but that leads us too far out. This will suffice and you will have to accept. Much you have made good already and so have I. Notice that when the father has acquired his possessions dishonestly, the children will have to give it back again. You have to lead your own life and I mine; we both have suffered.’

‘Where is my mother, your spouse?’

‘She lives on this side, but has a higher spiritual attunement than I.’

‘Is she your happiness?’

‘No, not she, she belongs with someone else.’

‘Where are my wife and children?’

‘Some are now on earth and some live already in the spheres. The one generation succeeded the other, Lantos. You returned here and went away. Therefore I came back to earth. And because of that we are connected and both will make good. You also feel perhaps that it was impossible for me to make restitution at that time, because you were my child and you forced me to let it be, but I could not agree, and made an end to my life. You did not do as I had asked, falsified the documents and wrote up new ones. So my deed remained, it could not be undone, everything rested on me. And still my passing over was not enough. You, however, continued with destruction. But I thank God that all this happened. My sins are now forgiven. I have atoned with my life and on this side, in other lives, as well as on earth I have made good again.’

‘How many lives were spent?’ I asked.

‘Many’, came the answer, ‘but in this particular life we were together. You and I have gone on to other lives, yet always to return to this estate. Do you feel now how deep a human being, the soul, the life, is that animates and guides the matter? All this cannot be fathomed, my boy, let this be sufficient. You see at the same time, that ties of love cannot be broken. For better or worse we shall once face one another and either make good or receive. We all have cursed, we all have broken hearts and robbed and tortured others. Those who have reached the spheres of light know all this. Not one person on earth knows himself. Nobody on earth has the right to condemn an other. They who live on earth will have to shed all those earthly habits. Also those who live in the darkness have to make good, for all of us follow one way, the way for the development of the spirit. One day we shall all be together. One day we will look back on the past, but then we shall be brothers and sisters in spirit, travelling always further. Those then who have much wealth on earth and earthly happiness will lose it again if it was stolen by their forebears. Everything on earth is perishable. Everything shall and will change, nobody can stop it. No one on earth has the powers to oversee all this. They are laws, nothing but laws, Lantos. Can you be thankful that you left home in your youth? Can you say so from the inner depth of your heart? Do you feel the inclination to thank God? Do you realize that it is a blessing to be allowed to behold all this?

I was allowed to show you all this. The meaning of the past you will now feel and understand. And all of this we shall tell to mankind. I shall wait for you till you have entered the spheres of light. I could go on showing you pictures from my youth, as well as many others, but I repeat, that is going too far. It only serves to explain things, to make you realize that everything we do must be set right. Whenever a father robs and the children are living of the stolen goods, then in due time the father will return to earth and exert influence upon them to help and support them as I am doing to you now. However, father, mother and children must live their own lives and what they make of it is by their own will.

My sins are forgiven and as of this moment my and your past dissolves and we are taken up in this life. The higher spheres are open to me, but I shall stay with you to lend my support. You will continue to work on yourself and I will follow you in everything.’

Next a strong current flowed through me and a hand lovingly pressed my shoulder. I knew whose strength and hand it was. Tears welled up in my eyes. For the first time I cried and felt the warmth of him who loved me. I grew quiet and thought for a long time. Unbelievably deep was all this, but I accepted it, for I had seen it. I would never have believed it, had it not been explained and shown to me. I could now forgive him who caused my destruction and even be grateful for it.

How much at this moment had I changed and in such a short time! Truths change a human being in one split second. These were truths I felt within me. They had been shown to me and to that I bowed my head. I thank you, my father. But I shall go on calling you master. My pre-century father was my leader and master. How was that possible, such depth and so unbelievable.

You must accept, always accept, Lantos, I admonished myself. You can’t do else and you can’t escape it either. The things I had experienced till now were very mighty. Now I understood that God did not create kinds of people, but that people turned themselves into weird species. Very animal-like were the human beings of ages ago. Still I was not happy and did not belong to those who lived in the light-radiating spheres.

Once more I thanked my father and asked: ‘Did my parents know that they were living of stolen money?’

‘Yes, they knew and you too would eventually have learned about it.’

‘Will they have to suffer hunger on earth?’

‘No, that goes too far, but they will have to work hard for their daily bread.’

‘But tell me, master, how is it that the past lies hidden in the human soul and they know nothing about that?’

‘Because the material body cannot stand the stress. But that what a person must experience he will feel in his consciousness. Take your art for instance.’

‘Yes, I feel and understand it.’

All those other life experiences dissolve in that earthly life, because one cannot understand and will not accept the meaning in that life. Many do not even believe that a hereafter exists, others do, but only very few can accept the past. Still it is embedded in each human being, it lies hidden deep in his inner self. Do you have any more questions for me?’

‘Perhaps, but at the moment I know not what more to ask.’

‘Well then, my boy, let’s move on, I have more to show you. I shall now connect you with the life before your last one and return you to the place where you lived. We will start from there.

I returned to myself again and the earth became visible for me once more. I took a last look around and then left.

‘Back to your studio’, I heard say, ‘that’s where our investigation begins.’

I soon arrived on that spot and immediately felt the familiar influence come over me. At the same moment my studio became visible and again I saw the chunks and pieces of the old statue. This time, however, the connection was made with the energy it radiated. Next I was lifted up and off we sailed towards the unknown. I floated over the earth again and learned to concentrate myself into a rapid speed.

Faster and faster it went, until I felt that the power that pushed me ahead began to slow down and I heard my leader say: ‘We are where I wanted to be. Here, Lantos, is where you mastered your feeling for art. We are now in ancient Egypt. The city we are in is Memphis. Centuries ago here the arts flourished. You were one of the masters here. You rose to great heights and this marvellous art was all you lived for. Your art is still preserved. In palaces and temples your statues have been saved. Marianne lived here too. You met her for the first time in this place and she became your beloved. You, however, brought sorrow and grief and robbed happiness from someone else. You have now atoned and made good.

In a short while I shall connect you with your art which includes the piece that fell over and broke in your studio. You have wondered how this piece came to be brought to you. Well then, all that was my doing, I wanted it, and connected myself with an other life. When we are in the service of higher powers we also receive aid. What I did was simple. I willed a man, who was going to Rome, to take along one of your statues. I was successful in awakening him for this ancient art and inspired him to bring it to you. What happened next you know. You were going to make another statue, but the old one fell into pieces. I knew this would happen. But it was only my intention to connect you with this art form, which you created in the past. Later you will get to know all these forces and accept how simple it is to bring them about. To you these are miracles and yet it is only concentration.

But I am going to tell you about another miracle. Don’t be startled when I tell you that he who brought you the statue was your own child. Your child thus from this time, from this life here in which you lived.’

‘What did you say?’

‘Your own child, you heard me well.’

‘And of Marianne?’ I asked quickly.

‘No, not hers. You left the mother of your child.’

‘And Marianne?’

‘Her too.’

‘Why? may I ask.’

‘Because you were a seducer and she was frivolous. She did not give you a child. She did not possess the feelings to receive this mighty and pure gift. Neither of you had any love. What you thought you had in love was nothing but passion. You left her but later returned. You kept on searching until your very last life on earth. But now you know that she is yours.’

‘And afterwards?’

‘After that you forced yourself into her life and destroyed the happiness of someone else.’

‘Whose happiness?’

‘Of Roni.’

My God, I thought, such wonders are happening to me.

‘How do you know all this?’ I asked.

‘Because I followed you for many centuries.’

‘Did you live here?’

‘Yes, but I had to follow you from this side and I have continued this work.’

‘Did I die here?’

‘Yes.’

‘Where is my child, do you know that?’

‘In the spheres of light. He is, now, your brother in spirit.’

‘Will I see him again?’

‘That you will and many others too.’

‘What then is the meaning of all these lives?’

‘By living all those lives you will get to know the true love. What you have to learn yet is the sister- and brotherlove. Everyone we know and have known are our sisters and brothers in spirit. It cannot be else.’

‘Does my child come back?’

‘No, he will go on like all the others who arrived there.’

‘My master and father, whoever you are, I accept everything, but will man on earth accept it?’

‘They must sense it, feel it through and through, there is no other way. Yet many, very many we will reach. It is God’s will that this shall happen.’

‘I shall entrust myself to you for I understand and accept everything and see that it is the truth. I am deeply, very deeply grateful and give you my sacred promise that I will give my whole.’

‘Thank you, Lantos. Know that I am explaining and showing you the holy truth. If you could not accept all this I would have to stop and wait until you are that far and ready to follow and listen to me again.’

‘No’, I said, ‘please don’t stop, stay with me, I am ready.’

‘Splendid, then we continue and will reach our goal.’

‘Can we visit Marianne when she will be on earth?’

‘You will see her again, but later when the time is there. Have you any more questions?’

‘No.’

‘Well, then we shall make our connection again.’

Now I felt myself going and merging, and then I was walking in the streets of Memphis again. It felt miraculously familiar, as if I had never left and still lived here. A former life returned to me and took hold of me. How great was the potential of the spirit! I entered a magnificent palace. Inside I saw exquisite artwork. Would I be able to call that work mine? I had to accept that it was, for when I attuned to it I could feel myself in those stone statues. Nothing could show me more clearly that I truly belonged with them. How deep went all this! Wondrously beautiful was my art. In Rome I had never been able to reach that height. Only now did I realize that, because I felt and saw it. In that life, I now understood, I had lived myself out in art.

I knelt down and thanked God for everything I had received to this day. My first prayer I sent up to God in childlike simplicity. For a long time I remained thanking God. Here I had lived and mastered my art. Deep, very deep was a human being. Ever deeper did I descend into my own life, and still I would not solve the deepest secrets of the soul, for then there was no end. At the same time I understood that this was sufficient for me to be able to accept.

I asked my master: ‘Who was my art teacher, do you know that?’

‘You had many.’

‘Where did Marianne live?’

‘Would you like to go there?’

‘Please, very much’, I said, ‘if it is possible.’

‘That too is possible, follow me.’

I continued to see Emschor as through a haze, but I knew it was he who guided me.

Suddenly he stopped me and said: ‘Do you see that water before you?

‘Yes’, I said.

‘That is the Nile. However, we will go a little further, come follow me.’

For a time we walked on.

Again he halted and said: ‘Do you see that building over there?’

‘Yes’, I said, ‘quite clearly.’

‘You see what I see, you feel what I feel, but everything has once been alive and thus is reality. This building is many centuries old.’

I saw a marvellous building in front of me. Rare statues enhanced it all, and to the left and right I could see the sphinx. At that instant a being entered the gate and walked towards the entrance of the building. I recognized that walk and that whole appearance. Were my eyes deceiving me? Were my feelings correct? Was the being I saw and felt Marianne?

Then I heard my master say to me: ‘It is Marianne.’

My God how overpowering is this picture. To see her in a different body. I felt her whole personality come within me. It was a miracle. This way I had sensed her in my dungeon. Yes, it was she. My feelings did not deceive me. For this I would forfeit my life. Tears sprung to my eyes, but I controlled myself. My love for her was deep, because now my feelings were conscious. To love with consciousness, ah, what a great treasure, such joy. She was a completely different personality in this life, but still, something in her told me that it was she. Through her love, the feeling that could not lie, I recognized her. What a beautiful figure she had!

I followed her inside, where some servants were waiting for her. Now she entered a large room and was received by an other person. I felt myself sink away deeper. I understood from that feeling that my master was connecting me even deeper. The person waiting for her I recognized immediately. It was Roni, my friend. What an enigma! I spotted great wealth surrounding him. Now I could feel my connection with her and him and I understood that I came between the two of them. But how was this possible? I fathomed them again and felt that my observation was true. Now I heard them speak. He feels and knows that he is being deceived, I thought. Next I saw an event that had occurred way back in the past. Truly a wonder.

After that the picture faded and I heard my master say: ‘He was married to her, and you were her lover. Come, follow me.’

We returned to the bank of the Nile. What belonged to the earth faded away. I was going down till I felt that I was being connected with my own life. Before me I saw two beings, two lovers, which I recognized immediately. They were Marianne and myself. Slender and handsome I was, she like a tigress and unfathomable. False and mean we both were. Here I recognized the truth and enormous problems were becoming clear to me. I followed those two and sensed the inner situation of myself, but also of Marianne. In nothing did we hold any values, we were spiritually poor, yet we were in love, deeply in love, but that love was passion, nothing but lust. She was not honest, but neither was I.

‘You both were frivolous’, I heard the master say and that I accepted. Here I felt and saw that he spoke the truth. This was not loving someone, it was gross egoism.

‘Remarkable’, I told the master, ‘very remarkable.’

‘I told you, didn’t I, that miracles would happen to you? You accept these miracles only because you can see them. You must accept them or everything was for nothing, and then you keep on searching. This is sufficient for you.’

‘I accept’, I said, ‘I can’t do else. God I thank and you too. I shall do my best, tell me what you want.’

‘Feel this blessing, Lantos, which God gave to you and me! Wake up, I don’t need to say more to you.’

All this made me silent. On the place where I had walked with Marianne centuries before, I knelt down and prayed ardently and my prayer increased more and more in strength. Like a child I prayed to my Father and on this spot I asked Him not to break up my love. I felt that I was beginning to feel true love and I wanted to maintain this inner strength. Some day this great and holy love would be given to me and I would do my utmost to earn it. I now felt very cheerful. My master had returned to his own life, but I felt him close by and I knew that he would remain wakeful and follow me.

‘Come’, I heard him say, ‘my Lantos, let’s go on, I have still more to show you.’